love must be forgotten. life can always start anew, I just spent the last couple hours whole heartily...

I just spent the last couple hours whole heartily laughing with some awesome friends. I felt like I was a little bit alive again, I forgot what it felt like to be alive. It is awesome to be alive and truly living. I feel comfortable, I feel at home. I’m alone in my flat listening to traffic driving by on divisadero. But I finally feel a tiny a bit alive and it’s amazing. I have hope again. The last couple days I had no hope and no love and it was hard to move forward. But now I have hope again that all will be fine and I pull ahead. I’m drunk and high but I’m alive. I’m what I’m supposed to be: happy. I’ll read all day and ride my bike to take amazing pictures. To show everyone the amazing beauty of this world. To love again and to live. Goodnight.